August 1, 2010

A little late

Leave it to me to ruin a track record of at least a post a day. Jenny was too tired yesterday to post and asked me to do it. I guess I was too tired too. In any case, here are the happenings of yesterday:

We had quite a few visitors through the day, and we now have enough food to make it through the winter. Thanks everyone for all the good stuff and for taking time to visit with us. I think a huge component of getting through this is knowing how much support we have.

I helped Jenny bathe and change dressings yesterday, which was my first good look at everything. I had caught glimpses when nurses were poking around at the hospital but no "full frontal" until now. I didn't know what to expect or how I'd feel about it, and I kind of sheltered myself from information about the procedure so I could draw my own conclusions. Well, when I saw Jenny's non-boobs, I was not grossed out at all, and I didn't feel sorry for her. I'm not sure how to describe it, but it was more of a point of fascination than anything. I guess the scientist/DIY guy/knowledge seeker in me kicked in and all of a sudden I was done sheltering myself from the particulars of the procedure and wanted to now everything about how it's done. What I'm getting at is that any kind of issues I thought I might have are just not there. Nothing has changed for me in the way I look at Jenny or the way I feel about her. I'm glad for that.

Jen is an amazingly beautiful person and doesn't need boobs to prove it. I'd rather have Jenny sans boobs than no Jenny any day. All of the things in this life are temporary and constantly changing, and I think the best thing to do is ride the wave and look for that beauty that's hiding in every ugly thing.

4 comments:

Joiner of Fine Furniture said...

Well stated. I agree.

Sue said...

you both wow me.
love and best thoughts
sue

mia said...

Al,
Thank you both for your amazingly beautiful, starkly honest posts. Being welcomed along with you on this crazy hellish process makes "us" all feel a little less helpless.

(I accidentally unlearned how to post... I think I can remember now. I am sure you were wondering why I was so uncharacteristically quiet)

Amber said...

She's a lucky lady indeed to have such a loving and helpful husband.... you guys'll come through this stronger than ever! If there's ever anything I can do, I'd be glad to help out...
-Amber