July 22, 2010

7

Good day/bad day?: Good but then sad

I had a good day at work, including a lovely team lunch (mmmmm, Indian), aside from ending the day with a couple of tornado warnings. But I am realizing that I'm not going to be getting a few goals accomplished before I'm off. Speaking of, I talked with HR and am well-covered for any leave I need to take, so that's nice.

Had the baby shower after work and had fun, though I know Joanna has to be sick of my advice by now! When I'm opinionated, I'm very opinionated...

Then some of it hit me tonight as Ben & I are struggling with all we have had to decide and all we have to arrange for the near future--a little overwhelming. It's really hard to get excited about turning 35 when it's a time that a lot is being lost, esp a lot of future choices. I think it's one of the few times I've really sobbed since my diagnosis. Right now as I'm writing I'm fighting the instinct to try to put a positive spin on things and find the bright side--it's really hard to just give myself permission to feel this way and not try to talk myself out of it. Maybe I don't know it and I'll magically figure it out tomorrow with my new age! Sigh. Goodnight.

2 comments:

Joiner of Fine Furniture said...

Choices lost make room for other choices. Hang in there Daughter-in Law. I love you.

OLIVE RULES..!!

Jim said...

Well said sir.