June 20, 2011

Lazy

Good day/Bad day?: long

Happy Belated Father's Day, Dad & Bruce! And Ben! And the rest of you, too.

The weekend was busy and hot and humid--sometimes that's what overtakes me. Good things to it, hung out with the Montana girls for a while and that was nice, but part way through it I just hit the wall and almost couldn't function. It had been a long Saturday outside, even with a nap, and I'm fight off what I thought was allergies but is turning into a bug (nice phlegmy cough). Felt like a dishrag.

Tried to give Ben a nice Father's Day--made him breakfast and he got to go fishing--but again was really wiped out. Today, same thing but there's too much happening at work to miss days until the end of the week. Ever go, go, go and feel like you're not getting anywhere? That's how I'm feeling. Too much to do always, and I feel if I sit down for an hour that I'm being lazy, when in fact that's what I want to do more of. It's a fine line to walk, and I can only think about how I'm just leaving things for me or others later. Trying to work it out.

I haven't figured out what it's going to be like when Olive's immobile--part of me thinks it'll be less work chasing her around, but then I think we'll have to compensate with more mental stimulation. That might be equally as exhausting for me right now. My brain is not at full throttle very easily these days.

But anyway, woe is me. Switching notes, Olive got her first real haircut (thanks, Holli!) into a cute little bob with bangs. Very cute, still gets full of sweat and sunscreen after a warm day! And I broke the news to Ben tonight that I'm keeping the hair clipper-short this summer, will plan to grow it out after the cast maintenance time is over. I have to say, it's the one haircut I've ever felt really confident about--like there is no other better hairdo I should try at the moment, because this is the option...

3 comments:

Julie said...

I don't mind being redundant in saying that you should be encouraged to do less by all of us that care about you. You have expended SUPERHUMAN amounts of energy in mothering, working, housekeeping and battling the junk in your body for so many months now. Your best medicine and best chance of gaining energy back is to do less. Please eliminate the guilt of feeling like you should do more - it is already way too much!

What can we all do to help you rest more??????????? It is not laziness, it is your best medicine for feeling better!

Kathy said...

Redundantly agreed--here, here! Remember, if you're willing, I'll be there with you, helping to occupy Olive and share the housework. It will be OK. Try to enjoy the now as best possible and then, let's just see how it goes. Put the future and the undone on the backburner. It's time yet for doing what's on the backburner. Can't wait to see the haircut. See you tonight with the big girl bed frame.

Kathy said...

oops...that was supposed to be: It's NOT time yet...